& my world will be coloured.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

LIKE FINALLY, the wedding is over. yeah. hahha. LIKE FINALLY shasha is my cousin. LIKE FINALLY i can don't rush to and fro geylang for errands. LIKE FINALLY, everything falls into place. but i miss the kecoh-ness. hah. (: photos will be up real soon. not today. i stil can feel the tired-ness of the wedding. haha. but nvm. it's all worth it. i can't believe that my cousin got married. i will miss those times together. cause.. i treated him just like my elder brother. and we used to have lots of fun, going out.. doing the simplest things that can make us happy. hahha. (: but now, he got a wife. haha. and yes, his wife = my pri sch best friend's sis. (: hahhaa. oh. can't think abt it. it gets my adrenaline running. hahaha. but im used to it, with her arnd. she's more like an elder sis to me, rahter than cousin. (: for REAL. hahha. she's cute lah. really. i called them the care bear couple. hahahaa. (:

*some random thoughts *
i dunno wad i will do if my aunt doesnt exist in this world anymore. i seriously cant magine things. she is just like my mother. all her kids are married, and she's a grandma. but she brought me up since the day i was born. im not saying that mum is not in use or something. hah. of coz mum is my first priority. but seeing her shedding tears yesterday... makes me feel that she's alrd old. and... i just dun want her to leave, just like my grandma. i havent have the best out of them. i mean.. my late grandma was an awesome-legendary woman. no one can ever be as soft and patient as her. and my aunt.. i think.. she's... just like her.. soft in heart. if she goes off one day.. i will surely miss her cooking. n i will miss everything abt her. i really hope she could see how much i appreciate her. until now, she take care of me... feed me well.. ask me wat i want. sometimes, i think she pampered me more than mum. hah. imagine... 18 years.. she's been taking care of me. thats long enuff to love her, as much i love grandma. (:
no matter what, i still love you, aunt. always, forever. <3

i fell back at square 1.
i dun want my love to end this way.
but what's left is still a question.
and why must i be the one crying out loud?
is it difficult to love you?
tell me that i'm not alone, love.

the heart once ask the body.
"if u're sick, who do you look for?"
and the body replied,
"the doctor. how abt u? if u're sick, who do you look for?"
and the heart goes..
"myself. i'll look for myself. cause with this heart, comes strength, determination and LOVE."

Fif ♥ 10:32 PM