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Monday, April 21, 2008

i need someone to talk to right now. but for once, i dunno who. im confused. i wanna shout but i dunno why. i wanna blame someone but i dunno who. im so fragile today. i dunno why. help.

im scared. im so scared. i dun want things to repeat itself again. right now i dun care who will read my blog or who wanna comment on it. i simply need to pour my feelings out from my heart. sometimes.. not knowing anything is better than knowing a lil bit of it.

i made such sacrifices and he cant. each have it's own consequences. but why am i the only one facing it? why cant u? he only think abt his feelings. not mine. if he's nice, he's nice. if he's not, he's not. why must you play arnd like this? it's tiring, u knw. loyal? only me? im stating to doubt everything u said from day 1.

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING, TAKE A TABLE AND THROW RIGHT AT HIS BLOODY FACE. i told u, havent i? and u DARE go against me. HOW DARE YOU.

im confused. while he's away, other ppl came along and replace him. ppl who can get along with me 1000times better. but.................. ARGH. forget it.

maybe what my gf say is right. he was never there. maybe once or twice. when i need him, he is always away. maybe screaming and taking a table to throw right at his face is not worth it. all he need is one good SLAP on his face. it's his childhood problem and that's all he need to solve it. i wanna get angry but it's NOT worth it.

maybe HE'S right.

TIME WILL TELL ALL.

there you go. take that. now THAT, is worth it.

Fif ♥ 1:47 PM