& my world will be coloured.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

she came with an empty thought. she never expect anything, but to have some friendship to him. she met him, watched him, talked to him, laughed at him. everything. she put the past behind her and she kept telling herself that she can move on. she kept telling positive things inside her head. she felt guilty inside. he had done so much good things to her previously and she thought she owed him big time. he had done everything out of his own willingness. and she was touched. but since things happen until it became like this, she felt guilty cause she shud not leave him totally like that. so in the end, she wanted to meet him just for once, to thank him everything and just to show some gratitude. she never had anything in mind about him wanting her back. all she wanted was friendship.

when she asked him about his life, he kept quiet. and all she wanted was a simple answer and explaination. but in the end, it turned out to be a cold war. and she swallowed that hard. she was so playful in that fast food restaurant, until she got him angry. angry till he left her. all alone.

she wanted to cry but she held back her tears. suddenly, she felt no love, no friendship. nothing. once again, he left her without a word. so in the end, she told herself that from now on, she must not feel guilty abt how good he is. anw, he did everything out of his own willingness. she got no chance to thank him and everything. he walked away, leaving her all alone to explore her inner feelings. she walked arnd, bought things that she've wanted and den exit the mall. she saw him sitting outside, most probably waiting for her. she wanted to approach him and ask him 1001 questions and even to thank him. she also wanted to tell him that that outing was the last one. she thought twice. without hesitation, she left him all alone there. she walked past him and she dunno whether he noticed her. and yes, she left without a word. without her realizing, tears roll down her cheeks.

on her way home. she left him a thank you msg. and that, was the last one. forever.

Fif ♥ 8:43 PM