& my world will be coloured.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

i dunno how to put this. but seriously, it's not that i dun want her to change. somethin in her simply freaks me out. but nvm. someone might be feeling the same way as i do right now.

just last night i have 1001 things to update. but right now, it seems like there's nothing but simply worries, problems and work. omg. i dunno wad i should be doing. seriously, everything is in a mess and i dunno where to begin with, to start things all over again. school has been fine, cousins are doing great, family is awesome. but somewhere, somewhat, somethin is disturbing me. i dunno. ugh. i need to stop crapping in here.

i was disappointed at that time, but since u didnt call me back, as in, ask me to be with u once again, den i will never want to bother anymore. i had my part to play. and i think i did it. i dunno what specifically went wrong but out of the 24 months so far, i never been hurt like this. never. and i think this will take time to heal. u did something WRONG. and i mean it. WRONG. and i have to take the blame, to cool things down. wtf. no way im gonna do tat. no way. as for now, i dun want to be the girl who seems so 'desperate' and willing to give in. it's time to let u feel what im going thru. even if this will take forever, im gonna let it go, somehow or rather. happy 25th, btw.

Fif ♥ 10:12 AM