& my world will be coloured.

Monday, January 28, 2008

and these few days, things have been fine. so great, till i can feel the love!
but still.. there are some things that still linger in my mind.
things that i dun wanna think abt, but.... well... u knw.... uh. nvm.
lotssa things happened lately.
school.. life.. family.. alot to say.
but i dunno whether this happiness will last til the very end.........
no matter wad, i'l be fighting hard. fight till the end.

wad's left of that teenage love, dear?

Fif ♥ 4:11 PM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

okays. look at edwin. his smile will forever be the same.!

awwwwww...... NOT.

BOREDOM strikes like mad.

i looookk.. BIG.

ouh. some random stuffs

and now.. wad's with leo?

wad's with edwin?

okay. i TOLD u i wanna be popular in KIDS CENTRAL.

DEPRIVED childhood!

Leo is always up to something!

okay. SK looks weird.

I like her last time, but i love her now.

at first i thought i was taking a pic with a ghost who doesnt wanna cross over. BLEAHS.

act act act act act cute. typical girls.

the main attraction is not me. that BALD guy.

this bag reminds me of my pri 1 sch bag. like REALLY. i miss snoopy. (:

Fif ♥ 11:41 AM

Monday, January 21, 2008

okay. here's the list of events that hapenned few days ago. (:

1) friday 18 Jan.
- went to sch as per normal, den halfway thru i left.
- met gerald. (uh. tell me 'bout it.)
- met up with cousin (syakir and mirah). omg. they are so adorable. asked me to teach them how to change blogskins and stuffs. so cute! syakir was so fickle minded till he cant decide which skin he wants. LOL. and mirah was like.. helpin him? LOL. and so, the rest of friday was okay. bought dinner at amk banquet. chicken rice. okay lah. not bad. reached home, bathe, prayed and then watched ISWAK 2 episode 5 with eng subs. (like finally). after that, snuggled up in bed.

2) saturday 19 Jan
- woke up early. ( i dunno why)
- went to fetch bro from tuition with parents and then had lunch at amk banquet. ate the double fish soup with rice. okay lah. (: den went home, rest awhile.
- went to amk hospital to meet uncle. den crazy cousins (syakir and mirah), played truth or dare. it was my idea though. but. with crazy people arnd, this game can never end without any laughter! i love when mirah was dared to sit just in front of the lift. like for real!! imagine if someone walk out of the lift! i think the person will get scared to death! hahahha.!
- after that went seiyu. saws alot of shoes there. but... ): so sad. i got this PROBLEM with shoes! hais. but nvm! i can find the nicest shoe that i can fit one day! im sure it will be a glass slipper! *dreams* LOL!
- went dinner at adam road. and well.. aunt scolded one driver. hahah, long story lah!

3) Sunday 20 jan
- went out with 2e1 clique! edwin, shu kang, fei say and leo. hahahha. very very very fun lah! haha. but so sad, trupti have to miss this one. ): due to her tuition. hais. nvm. we'll make it up for her one day. hahah! but im so so sure that yest's outing was the best one ever! we went bugis, walk walk.. ate at food republic, walk walk, went to muji and then to mu-ee and then to shaw. but in the end, we didn't watch any movie at all, due to limited movies and timings. haha. den.. we went sing post at paya lebar to sit down and chat. wanted to go to coffee bean, but got a lot of people. so, we head on to LJS. ordered iced-milo and fish fingers. ahah. leo ate AGAIN. haha. he can be my makan partner! LOL. and then we wet to fei say's mum's bakery shop. at aljunied. ahaha. nice nice! leo and i were eyeing at the choco mousse cake. stare and stare. hahah! (: so in the end, edwin and shu kang went to buy the waffles there. haha. then we took photos outside.. wah. damn nice. most of the people there was like wondering.. why on earth are they taking photos in the heartlands? ahhaa. yeah. after that, home sweet home! (:

so that summarises all. okay. here's the best part. BLOOPERS! ready? here we go.

1) at LJS...

leo: edwin, u sure u dun wanna eat?
edwin: yeah.
fifah: eh. must pamper urself once in awhile , u knw.
(edwin keeps quiet)
after 5 mins...
edwin: eh. wad is this called? (pointing to my drink)
fifah: oh. iced milo.
(edwin stood up and go to the counter)
fifah: finally we managed to brain wash edwin!
(edwin comes back with his milo)
edwin: why my milo dun have any milo powder toppings like u guys have?
all of us, except edwin: BLEAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!

2) outside muji..

fei say: eh. wanna go bugis street?
leo: huh? who stripped?
fei say: =.="
fifah: hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahha!
leo: i heard stripped
fifah: fei say. go. explain again.
fei say: dun want lah. later i vomit blood.
fifah: wanna go bugis street?!
leo: ouh.
shu kang and edwin: ?????

3) at bugis junction..

(leo picked up a CNY card)
leo: shu kang, look.
shu kang: eeee!
leo: so pervert lor! check the code. how much is this card?
fei say: oh. hmmm.. $5.50
leo: wah. $5.50 for a perverted face? not worth it!
(i was looking at the valentine's day card)
leo: fifah. dun emo emo. valentine's day should be happy.
fifah: huh? since when i emo???????
(i was reading the words on the card. so sweet lah can? haha)

4) at LJS..

(we were talking about celebs. den. it derives to this...)
fifah: oh yeah. like pamela anderson. she died right?
fei say: hahahaha
leo and edwin: huh? she died?
leo: since when she died?
fifah: i dunnno! i heard she died?
edwin: no lah. she's nto dead yet.
fifah: really ar? omg. den who died in the hotel? the one that came out in the news?
edwin: hmm.. which one?
leo: got ar.... hmmmm..
(1 min later)
leo: oh. i know. mandy moore
fei say, fifah: huh?! hahah.
fifah: i thought she's still alive? i thought she is the one acting in 'a walk to remember'?
leo: huh? not her meh?
everyone: ????
(2 mins later..)
leo: oh! i know. anna nicole something right??
fifah: oh yes yes!!! correct.
leo: haha. omg. we cursed all the wrong people. haha!
fifah: yeah. omg.

okay! that's all..! hahahha. okay. pictures will be up real soon! (:
look out for updates!! (:
till then...!

Fif ♥ 9:26 AM

Thursday, January 17, 2008

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two

So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close..

So close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close

So close, and still
So far...

and i bid my last goodbye.

Fif ♥ 8:53 PM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

.. all i need is a good rest. proper sleep.
& everything will be okay.

yes. everything will be.

Fif ♥ 11:52 PM

Saturday, January 12, 2008

i still can't find the right words to describe my feelings. but deep downm i know that i've changed. Maybe for the better? i dunno. all i know is that i've moved on. actually, there's a lot f things that i wanna share. however, there's mixed feelings abt myself and all ic an say is that it seems like a roller coster ride.

after the break up, i delt as id i've lost something in my life. but it's been weeks now and things changed. it just make me stronger. maybe all i need is time? i'm slowly recovering my confidence towards everything. this feeling is rather familiar but sometimes, it contradicts.i thank God that i can be myself all over again. memories should be kept and the bitterness should be put away.as what my friends say, it's tough but i'm sure i can do it. and yes, i made it. i'm sure things wil turn out great in the future.

in school the other day, i had a BFF talk with my dearest hannah. she was great! i love her to the bits. she understood my wants and needs. fizzy too! she's adorable. (: and yeah! i did have fun talkng to her. i realize that i do have great things and people in my life, that i've yet to cherish. i guess, i a brand new start is not bad afterall. (:

'nuff said. im at the hospital now, visiting ppl. so, shall update some other time. till then.

you're in my arms..
and all the world is gone
the music playing along for only two..
(:
but how can i face to face this dance,
if i shall lose u now..?

Fif ♥ 8:14 PM

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

and so, sch was okay today. omg. science was sucha headache. i feel like throwing magnets to the projector, laptop, even the faci. seriously, i was going bonkers due to the program that the teacher gave. nvm abt tht. wads over is over.
and tmr there's UT! G102. Omg. im so dead. i havent even study yet. i dunno which problems are coming out. omg omg omg!
okay. i think im gonna study now. really.
take care, peepos.(?)
ugh. hahah. LOVES.

Fif ♥ 9:10 PM

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

no wonder i have u as my best friend. yeah. really. at times like this, i mean.. all i need is a listening ear and someone to advice.
thanks so much for being there for me all the time and well.. i may be a "trouble" for you and you know.. let you think of some things that you would not want to think about. in a way, i do feel touched by what you said. i may not aprroach u in other matters. but matters like this only you and i kinda know abt it deep down.
and yes, love. i know that phrase. that was what i've been thinking of lately. remember how much i encourage u and keep you going when u are having doubts abt urself last time? yes, at that point of time i do feel strong. because things like this never happen. but when this thing strikes, never once i knew that i will feel this weak. i thought i can be as strong. i thought i could go thru this alone. i thought i could bear all the pain by myself. i thought i have all the answers to all my questions. but i was wrong. i was totally wrong. all i need is someone who can share my troubles with.
i do still feel abit sad because i was left hanging on my own without any answers to my questions. thanks to you, my love. at least im not in a haze anymore. at least i can continue with wad im left wif now. and i hope, with u arnd, things will just get better. (:

.... i apologize if i made u think of things that u dun want to. im so sorry.

Fif ♥ 9:51 AM

Saturday, January 5, 2008

sometimes, all i really want to do is to scream + cry.

like wad i did last time at ECP.

seriously, i need nur aqidah with me. :(

Fif ♥ 10:23 PM

Friday, January 4, 2008

Aqidah: Eh eh. KPO seh! hahahahhaha! No lah. Busy........ rotting at home.! Hah. Take that. But no lah. Sch starting next week. Shucks. And i am so in the holiday mood still. Crap.
Anyway, nth much happenned lah. Really. I myself dunno wad to update. Just that i ate sushi today. That's all. LOL.

i made a mistake today. and i hate myself for that. ugh.

Fif ♥ 8:52 PM

Thursday, January 3, 2008

There were times when i miss him. But there were also times when i really felt like putting and throwing things one side. I mean, seriously, things never felt much better after he left. As in.. well.. it seems like.. all door of happiness and opportunity opens up for me once again. Yeah, really. A feeling that i miss so much. The last time i felt it was when i am in sec 2/3.. somewhere there.. where i was being all myself.. no limits to what i am doing. With SC, cheerleading, Band.. It was as if.. i create wonders to my life all the time! I am not trying to say that with him arnd previously, he's sucha bore and doesnt care much. No. But all im trying to say is that i want someone who can share the things that i love to do. Like aqidah!! Someone who can even spice up things! Someone who is as adventurous as me, as "high" as me, as... ugh! Haha. I cant think! I am so looking forward to meeting new friends again and start everything new. Haha.

Alright. So yesterday went out awhile. Nth much happened though. Really, nth much. Shall update tmr, then. Haha.

& OMG. Sch's starting next week. HELP.

Fif ♥ 3:58 PM

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

start of something new.

Welcome 2008! Wow. Time passed by damn fast, i shall say. Really. Well, told u guys that i'll be changing site. So.. here i am! A brand new start. Well, some of you guys may have read the last post in my previous blog (princess-littlestar.blogspot.com).. where i told u guys some stuffs abt me and you-know-who. But hey.. it's a new year, a new beginning. As what some say.. " an ending always have a new beginning". I do hope it's true! Even though i dunno why he sour things up at the ending of the year.. where i can't enjoy the last moments of 2007. But, i told mself to be strong. Let my previous blog do all the talking abt it. Now, it's a brand new capter of my life! New people, new resolutions, new everything! Haha. Can't wait. But of coz there are some stuffs will still be kept the same. (: anyway, guess wad? i counted down in the car with my family members! Here's the story. My uncle was admitted to the hospital on the eve of new year. So, my family and i rushed to TTSH to visit him. He is he oldest uncle so, i treated him liek my grandpa cause my mum treated him like a dad. Since i can't feel my grandpa's love from my mum's side, i decided to take him slightly more than an uncle. So, to cut thigns short, there were some stuffs that happened. Hah! Wanna knw more must ask me! LOL. So, in the end, my dad drove us home and when we reach our carpark, it was only 2 mins left to 12am. We were watching the channel 5 countdown 2008 inside the car, since our car have tv. So, we counted down together with channel 5, inside the car, at the carpark! After that, we off the engine and went up to bathe and everything. Haha! Fun, fun, fun. Something that we never did before! (: and so, today, nth much happened, just went to the hospital again. Since he is in the ICU, i think my parents will visit him more often. See how. So tmr is the start of the school term! Haha! Have fun, kids! Hah. For my poly friends, enjoy te last few weeks of sch and we have another long break!!! (: haha!

Alrite, shall stop here then! Will update tmr. Night!

Fif ♥ 10:44 PM